Sunday, November 11, 2007
I'm in the middle of contemplating going back to school. Contemplation has always sounded like a very passive excersise to me however, this time it is a large consuming fire in my life. It eats up my time and robs me of my energy lately.
I sat with someone on Friday and spent an hour talking about my dreams, where I felt the Lord nudging me and what my action steps were going to be. And I wonder, I wonder where do I find the courage to make the first step?
It's so easy to stay comfortable...to stay still and to just be. But where is the fulfillment in that?
As I prayed with this friend on Friday, he told me that the Holy Spirit was saying to me "Don't miss it!" I'm so afraid...afraid of missing it....afraid of finding it...afraid of wanting it...just afraid.
Don't miss it... I'm praying for the courage to look, to act, to believe.